In revisiting my journal, there are a few themes that keep repeating… frustration with the world (politics, religion & capitalism), frustration with my life, and powerful desires to heal the world, me included! This quote from my journal captures the essence quite well:
“I want to feel freedom’s wings upon my cheeks, with each breath I take. I feel purity cleansing my being, my soul has been quenched… I yearn to resonate this peacefulness, in stereo for all to appreciate!”
Sitting back in reflection… I am able to laugh at myself and see the simple path of growth I am on. No longer worried about finding meaning in life; I was always trying to reconcile the effort I was making vs. the value I felt I was receiving. I was like liquid nitrogen, rolling around in beaded anticipation… never fully coming back to its original form.
Living life simply is at the heart of everything I now do; this path leaves my youthful doubts and insecurities behind, making way for the beautiful view before me. This clarity of thought could be attributed to being a cancer survivor, but I think it also has to do with the Gita philosophy, “peace immediately follows the giving up of expectations.” Finally accepting that at our core, we are all connected… our Ch’i, cyclotrons, chit Shakti, spirit – the energy of consciousness is all one. We are all in sync… in constant “pairing” mode.
As Kant and Hinduism gave way to the transcendental movement in the 1800’s, so they all have birthed every new age movement since. Pure reason, or a priori knowledge, of the spirit is being held captive by science (posteriori or personal knowledge)… and my thought is capitalism is at the root of all this struggle, as religion was once thought to be the cause of all wars. Our society needs to get behind our politicians and push for real change; we all need to push for a revolutionary change in how we run our country. There is no time to waste; our environment, health and well-being all depend on us taking a real look at the state of our union and place their faith in the words of Ralph Waldo Emerson:
“So shall we come to look at the world with new eyes. It shall answer the endless inquiry of the intellect, — What is truth? And of the affections – What is good? By yielding itself passive to the educated Will. …Build, therefore, your own world. As fast as you conform your life to the pure idea in your mind, that will unfold its great proportions. A correspondent revolution in things will attend the influx of the spirit.”