Why is it the Republican presidents tend to have a really bad guy pulling the strings behind a magic curtain? You know who I’m talking about… Bush with Cheney… and now Trump with Bannon? This is bananas Bannon (#bananan).

I can actually hear the Monkey’s music playing, while short bits of the White House staff and the President scramble about, running into walls, and poking fun at each other.


Then I shift my focus, to what I can see going on outside the White House windows… protests as far as the eye can see.

There is a definite music change, to something more soulful. I lost my breath, my mind, my heart has left the White House. The collective soul of this nation is pulsing with life again, and I feel the love, just fear the hate.


I consider myself a very trusting person, but I do not feel safe with the President. I have never felt this powerful emotion before.

I have questioned, but never feared. I am a 50 year old woman, and I am scared of my President.

And so are you.

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karma’s a bitch…

My planter box can sit for years, not yielding one plant. No matter how hard I wish, nothing grows in this box without a seed.

I could buy some seeds, but that’s terribly expensive. I can’t steal any seeds, because I can’t free them from their chain and balls.

How then can I get seeds?

I will need someone to give them freely, a man to provide his seeds willingly.

Which brings me to the planter box next to me… she was seeded without consent. Forced to grow the seeds of a thick tree trunk that has now broken her box, and her tears are everywhere. She can’t hold her own (water) anymore.

I overheard the workers saying she was weak, and should be removed. They didn’t want to waste their time putting her back together; they want her to go away.

Incarceration for being seeded? Are you kidding me?!!!

This is not a blame game… wake up people; or the 73.3% of us will happily watch you shovel manure for the rest of eternity.

Karma’s a bitch!

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Yet another black man shot dead by an officer… but this officer also killed a son, a husband and a daddy of four kids with that one bullet. Another American citizen caught for bombing within the U.S. while his family does nothing to stop him. A convoy carrying food and clothes for 7800 people destroyed, never to arrive in Syria where it is so desperately needed. Hundreds of thousands are dead in the Middle East as the terror spreads throughout our world.

I can’t stop the tears, the same uncontrollable tears streaming down my face from fourteen years ago, watching the twin towers tumble to the ground… while holding my newborn in my arms. I promised her we would take care of this problem, but she is graduating high school in less than three years and I have done nothing.

I have continued my life as if there is nothing to worry about, more concerned over our economy and what Brangelina are doing than how many lives are being lost. Our precious capitalism, the root of everything that is both good and evil in this world…yes, I love my iphone, but at what cost? When we live in a world that eagerly poisons our food supply and bumbles around looking for media-farts from Trump and Clinton… I shouldn’t be surprised that we are worse off today than fifteen years ago.

It is time everyone, it is time to take the blinders off and get dirty again. This struggle is both internal and external, daunting to think about but it is so real. We have much to fix within our own nation, let alone the battles we must wage against ISIS and its supporters. It is time for a New Americana Revolution, grassroots, badass, fix what’s wrong and take no prisoners!!

Do I have the answers? No, otherwise I wouldn’t be crying… I would be doing! But I start today with this post and I will continue each day because I do not want to leave all this for my kids to fix, they cannot do this alone and I promised my little girl long ago:-(

“The relentless ache in my heart sending ripples through the pool of tears at my feet”

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just love…

“The truth of simplicity brings life’s clues…”

Living in a fantasy of money, lust and religion, it is hard to see where the battle begins.  Of course, each person is distinct and appropriate to their own mind; we all understand the battles within and birth-right prejudices, but until we honestly see the bigger picture and trim our denial, we have no hope of escalating our condition.  It reminds me of Daniel Quinn’s, Ishmael, and the battle against the unknown bars that cage our culture; the exact same reason why he thought the ‘60’s revolution failed.

The drawback of living a life by following the rules society sets is that your life, my life, everyone’s life is not wholly their own; it’s a walk down a structured path.  I believe that nature has so much more to offer, a more organic meandering; embracing the learning turns of life… choosing to live life, instead of reliving it!

As Thomas Paine once tried to inspire in his day can be said here today, “we have it in our power to begin the world over again.”  We just need to breathe confidence into our visions for lasting peace and real change.  Some call me naïve, but I believe we are at the cusp of change, just moments before we realize we can redesign our values… and stop competing.  I repeat loudly…. STOP COMPETING.  Competition is at the root of our captivity; our self-created bars also serve in keeping us too busy to see the obvious.  The fastest way to destroy a community is to withhold resources; people will turn on each other for fear of losing what meager resources they have.

I believe people choose the righteous path when playing a fair game and that a good person comes from within, not from threats.  Western values and morals are all built on fear; and we are so petrified of losing that we blindly chase our tails in vain.

Thomas Paine had the right idea with his “guaranteed minimum income”… a system of social welfare that guarantees that all citizens and families have an income sufficient to live on, provided they meet certain conditions. It seems most of Europe agrees with this plan, as does Canada and most of the Scandinavian countries… France began their program in 1988, which seems a bit late for a country who learned long ago to put community first with their lavish meals and long siestas.

France does seem to have their lives in alignment with healthy living… as their rates of disease are down with eastern cultures, yet still eat, drink and smoke without fear.  I believe one of their keys to success is their commitment to keeping food free from contaminants, and from cooking seasonal foods from local farms.

Here in the United States, we aspire to a higher calling… we want food to be cheap, easy and fast; while our corporations want to make the most products at the cheapest cost, creating the biggest profits.  We don’t put our physical or mental health as a priority in our lives, so what we desire is then manifest, the most unhealthy, wealthy nation in the world.

We are told that if we follow certain rules, good will follow; we will go to heaven, get in the right schools, get a good job etc. Success by this standard is quite easy for the small, gifted and mostly white percentage of people (and their offspring).  But what if you are born into poverty or worse, the possibilities are slim to nearly impossible for the beaten, broken and abused larger percentage of the population.  And we are tired of this hypocrisy, otherwise we would not be backing such extreme candidates as Trump and Sanders, and these unlikely candidates have gained strength.  One wants to beat everyone into submission with an oversized club, and the other wants to level the playing field by forcing Wall Street and large corporations to share their wealth.

Putting politics, religion and capitalism aside… there will be more than one path to regain our pride and sense of control in our lives, but it will first begin with changing the story we tell ourselves.  It is time to believe in the intent of our being, not as interested in what we do, but why we do it; to reconnect our spirit to the divine oneness of us all on this planet.  No room for labels, just for love.  I repeat loudly… JUST LOVE.

“Take apart your bow and arrow…

And what you have now will be there tomorrow.”


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reckless change

Capitalism and the industrial revolution have proven to be a fatal relationship; one is bad enough, but together they have forged a seemingly endless process that is currently so big it cannot be controlled. Supply and demand are its’ only laws and they are supplying the masses with the kind of decadence that will destroy our planet. True concern for this predicament started hitting the airwaves in the 1990’s, but we were called hippies and thought to be high on life, as usual. Then Al Gore’s, An Inconvenient Truth, came out in 2006; this helped open a lot of eyes and the ripples are still being felt. Almost ten years later, we have a global leaders’ summit collecting 196 countries together to discuss future plans.

I wish I could believe that this global summit will produce some solid changes, I really do… but it’s not easy to make the real changes we need to make in order to slow global warming. As for me, personally, I drive a very large car, I have two kids, carpool & lots to transport, I love a warm house as I tend to run cold, I did start composting again, but I do many things I truly shouldn’t. I am working on improving each year, but it’s too slow, in my opinion.

America is the first off-spring of this marriage between capitalism and the industrial revolution, and she’s a bully, a very popular bully. America helps the world and there doesn’t seem to be a limit to our giving and protecting in certain areas. We have come to expect a lot from America, but I think that’s fair considering her rocky start. I wonder if we will be the leader in this new frontier and what exactly will this look like?

What is becoming clear is that we have passed the time when warnings and focused concern can do any good… global warming and the all too clear signs are upon us. I think we crossed that line about three years ago; maybe we could’ve been closer to change had 9/11 not occurred, but that’s hindsight and we have our future to protect!

I have started talking about Bernie Sander’s call for a REVOLUTION and I believe he is correct; in fact, we need reckless change, American-style!!! A complete overhaul of our society is needed, and it will be hard forging into uncertain territory without all the niceties we have come to enjoy and rely on. We can do this, WE MUST DO THIS AGAIN… only this time without having to sail across the Ocean to find our new land. We must look within ourselves to conquer this battle. What is clear, is we won’t be able to look ourselves in the mirror (literally) if we put this off much longer. Something I wrote back in the mid 1990’s seems to relate well here:

Once you decide you want to love yourself,

You have much work to do.

This path is dark and arduous,

But the beauty is worth the journey.

I also found a short essay I wrote almost 10 years later that had a funny approach to changing our bad habits. I compared the struggles of a smoker giving up cigarettes to a person having to give up luxury in the wake of global warming. Quite certain I was struggling with quitting smoking (and not winning) when I wrote it because I explained how it is easier for me to cut-back slowly instead of quitting cold-turkey. Then added that maybe now non-smokers can understand how hard it is to quit… I was obviously frustrated, but I’m happy to announce I did win the battle against cigarettes. And I am suggesting a similar plan now, instead of frustration, start small. My global-warming plan starts with one simple list; I challenge everyone to pick five ways to improve our planet and cross-off each item once accomplished until the list is complete. You might have guessed already, but the next step is to simply write a new list of five changes… and keep going even when your teenage daughter, rolls her eyes at you and claims, “you are so natural and annoying now!” Yes, that happened to me this year… but happy to share that I am still checking things off my lists (and so will she one day).

Whether on the threshold of a bold new move or a minute realization – keep the forward motion!

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Utne Reader put together a trio of articles, all focused on the end of the world and although the stories vary, they have this one truth in common… the end of the world is imminent.

Josiah Neufeld’s article (from Geez) shares the ideals of one couple and how they “believe human civilization is entering the first stages of a collapse from which no valiant activism, alternative energy or utopian technology can ultimately save it.” Seems even NASA agrees, “In march, a NASA-funded team of mathematicians projected that unless humanity manages to employ drastic reductions to inequality and population growth in coming decades, the collapse of human civilization will be ‘difficult to avoid.’” The article further explains the couple’s philosophy, “’Rumi says, ‘we need to die before we die,’ and they continue with, ‘that’s how we live well.’ They believe that what makes life meaningful is not necessarily happiness, but a willingness to experience the entire depth and breadth of what life has to offer. They want their daughter to be able to cultivate her own spirituality, to feel empathy for others, and to know the joy of working together with a community… ‘that will keep her safe.’”

I agree that those are important tools for survival… then adding to it some hunter/gatherer skills and self-defense and I believe we have a winner!! Stephen Jenkinson, a Harvard-trained theologian (&/or wilderness sage) made several comments towards the end of Neulfeld’s article and almost all of them took my breath away. “The way you’re going to die well is you’re going to allow your dying to change every idea you ever had about ought to and supposed to, and who we are to each other, and what this time is for.” Jenkinson “believes the acts of maturity and wisdom called for in our time are not deeds of individual heroism, but a willingness to be faithful witnesses, to ‘live with the ending of things… to witness her death, grieve it, and allow it to change us. I felt much the same while battling cancer, still do; I had to find the calm to endure six months of chemo and six months of intense recovery. I did all that as though I were floating in space watching the pictures of my life pass by; I did a lot of reflecting during that time but I felt connected to life as never before. Now on the other side, as my dad had warned me, I am a different creature; I follow a very strict diet, stay away from stress, and I am mindful each and every day.

Another VERY interesting point from the article was from an American writer, Rebecca Solnit, who has researched various disasters and shares her findings… “in the wake of a disaster ‘most people are altruistic, urgently engaged in caring for themselves and those around them, strangers and neighbors as well as friends and loved ones. The image of a selfish, panicky or regressively savage human being in times of disaster has little truth to it.’ Scholars who study disaster have found that the people who react violently in crises are most often elites who believe humans are ‘bestial and dangerous,’ and who think they must protect themselves.” Rebecca gave me a slice of intense “right on”, and it does resonate with my more simplistic experiences.

The second article in Utne was written by Paul Kingsnorth (from Tricycle), cofounder of the Dark Mountain Project (writer and artists in search of new stories); his take on humanity and the world has equal parts sadness and acceptance, with a spark of hope. I have to quote his closing paragraphs, as the truth of his words nearly moved me to tears:

“What happens if you sit with the earth? If you reach down and touch it, if you call it as your witness? What happens if you let your own needs and demands fall away, and see the world outside you for what it is? I would suggest that, with the right quality of attention, we may come to know what is right for us as individuals, and what we can usefully do. This doesn’t mean that all will be well. All will not be well. It doesn’t mean we will necessarily end up any less confused or conflicted, either. It doesn’t mean we will never again experience the despair of knowing what we have done and what we are still doing and of all the things we are losing and can never bring back.

But it does mean, or it could, that we are able to hold those feelings within us, to understand them and maybe reconcile them. It does mean that we can be done with denial and projection and false hope and false hopelessness. If we sit with the earth, with the trees and the soil and the wind and the mist, and pay attention, we may know what to do and how to begin doing it, whatever burden we carry with us as we walk.”

Which brings us to Utne’s third article about “a hypothetical peek at the future of Earth and its intelligent species” broken down on a timeline, written by John Michael Greer (from Adbusters). This article served mostly to drive the main hyphothesis into being… and that’s the reality that the Earth is going to perish and so will all of its’ beautiful creatures. Such a brave and strong statement to make with this trio of articles, but they worked well together.

I found the following in my journal, written December 1995; I was busy deciding whether to try another gig in Los Angeles or move back to San Francisco.

“Now the responsibility rides upon my shoulders

Reality with a tempo

Silent passion echoing the words

Tickling the soul

Igniting the mind

Setting the spirit free”

Instead of wallowing in denial or running around in frantic fear, I find myself quite calm with the truth Utne has provided.   Not sure if this lack of fear is due to my face-off with cancer but I embrace the peace and quiet, and I have a feeling it’s going to get loud before too long!!

I will be Earth’s witness, and I will sit with her, listen and resonate with her…

… even when it hurts!

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transcendent revolution…

In revisiting my journal, there are a few themes that keep repeating… frustration with the world (politics, religion & capitalism), frustration with my life, and powerful desires to heal the world, me included! This quote from my journal captures the essence quite well:

“I want to feel freedom’s wings upon my cheeks, with each breath I take. I feel purity cleansing my being, my soul has been quenched… I yearn to resonate this peacefulness, in stereo for all to appreciate!”

Sitting back in reflection… I am able to laugh at myself and see the simple path of growth I am on. No longer worried about finding meaning in life; I was always trying to reconcile the effort I was making vs. the value I felt I was receiving. I was like liquid nitrogen, rolling around in beaded anticipation… never fully coming back to its original form.

Living life simply is at the heart of everything I now do; this path leaves my youthful doubts and insecurities behind, making way for the beautiful view before me. This clarity of thought could be attributed to being a cancer survivor, but I think it also has to do with the Gita philosophy, “peace immediately follows the giving up of expectations.” Finally accepting that at our core, we are all connected… our Ch’i, cyclotrons, chit Shakti, spirit – the energy of consciousness is all one. We are all in sync… in constant “pairing” mode.

As Kant and Hinduism gave way to the transcendental movement in the 1800’s, so they all have birthed every new age movement since.   Pure reason, or a priori knowledge, of the spirit is being held captive by science (posteriori or personal knowledge)… and my thought is capitalism is at the root of all this struggle, as religion was once thought to be the cause of all wars. Our society needs to get behind our politicians and push for real change; we all need to push for a revolutionary change in how we run our country. There is no time to waste; our environment, health and well-being all depend on us taking a real look at the state of our union and place their faith in the words of Ralph Waldo Emerson:

“So shall we come to look at the world with new eyes. It shall answer the endless inquiry of the intellect, — What is truth? And of the affections – What is good? By yielding itself passive to the educated Will. …Build, therefore, your own world. As fast as you conform your life to the pure idea in your mind, that will unfold its great proportions. A correspondent revolution in things will attend the influx of the spirit.”

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